Welcome to Setsuna's DA!
If you have been a follower of mine for a while (longer than say, a year), you may notice something a little... different around here.
Life, as it is often apt to do, has changed for me a lot. I have some projects that I am working on for which I felt the need to go back, once and for all, and let old scars fade away. As I hopefully continue with these projects, I hope it will become clear that while letting old scars fade is good, and what I need to do, the reason the scars are there should never be forgotten. I am who I am now thanks to many different experiences, some more horrifying than others. But take those experiences away, good or bad, and I'm no longer me.
This doesn't mean I won't talk about those experiences, or look back on them to help me through new ones, but the years and years of journals that I had archived here weren't serving any purpose but reminding me of the despair I felt during those times, and not of the perseverance I exhibited to make my way out of them. I needed to get rid of those journals to help me focus not on what happened specifically, but on how I made it through. I need this to be my focus in order for my message to be effective. Yes, what happened during time X in my life is
important, but I am trying to put forth a message of hope. That it can
get better. That you can make it through. I am living proof of that.
Since this will now be my very first journal, let me introduce myself:
My name is Setsuna. I work in IT - and I'm good at it. I enjoy many kinds of art: I used to focus solely on pencil, ink pens, and colored pencil, with the occasional painting thrown in thanks to school. I discovered pixel art and fell in love, and did a lot of it for a long time. The most recent artwork of mine (still getting old though) is vector-style graphics. I still love all these styles, and have practiced all of them at one point or another in the time I have been absent from DA, but unfortunately I have nothing finished to upload at this time. I am married to the most supportive man I have ever known, who has helped me immensely during this time of change for me, and has promised to always support me no matter what I choose to be. He gives me strength when I feel I can't go on. I hope I do the same for him. We have no desire to have children, but love our two fur-babies very much (two dogs, both rescues, Dresden, a lab mix, and Molly, a collie mix).
I unfortunately have a track record for saying I will do more art, but then life, as always, gets in the way. I'm hoping that this time it won't be so bad, though, because the biggest life-factor that used to take me out of the game was my epilepsy. I've had it for a long time... about 14 years this coming November. I've only actually had it under control for about 4 months though - the first 10 years or so, no one ever said I was having seizures. They thought it was a heart or blood pressure problem, and no one ever gave me a treatment other than avoid caffeine and get more salt in my diet to keep my blood pressure up. I finally put my foot down a few years ago and finally found out what was going on, and only recently found a doctor who agreed and started treatment. And here I am, 4 months, seizure free. Assuming that keeps up, and nothing else too life-crazy happens, I may finally keep the promise to be around again.
The project I am working on and want to accomplish is, for now, something I'm not sharing publicly. The idea is in its infancy, and it could be some time before it comes to fruition. In the meantime, I have other hobbies and goals to finish - I love the movie Labyrinth beyond words, and had wanted to do some kind of art of Jareth in honor of David Bowie's passing. I've wanted to do some Sailor Moon art for a while, since the Crystal reboot and the fact that the first artwork I did that wasn't in crayon was drawing Sailor Moon characters. I also was working on Pokemon vector art before I disappeared again, and with Sun and Moon coming out this year, I want to do more. Plus a laundry list of other ideas that have been floating around my head for who knows how long that I want to finish.
Last but not least, another form of art that I am a big fan of is the written word. I have had many unfinished works here on DA that got some fairly large followings back in the day... I have no plans on finishing any of the stories I once started, but I've been a busy bee in the last 6 months - I participated in NaNoWriMo, and WON!!! Just the other day, I finally finished the novel that I started (for those who don't know, during NaNoWriMo, you have to write 50k words during the month of November, but you don't necessarily have to "finish" what you are writing, which is how I "won" but did not finish the story until now). I have edits to do, and then some beta readers will take it and give me feedback and I'll have more edits to do. But, in the meantime, I have the above-mentioned art projects I wish to work on, and I also have another story idea that I'm flirting with posting here on DA instead of attempting to publish or anything like that.
So I think that's it for now. If you're new here, I hope you'll check back to see if I keep my promise to do more and become a part of this community again. If you're an old friend, hello again and I hope you'll encourage me to keep my promise.
Fingers crossed I mean it this time. I may want to let some old scars fade, but I also want to get back to my roots and be the creative person I was before one of those painful scars made me afraid to continue to be. My husband has brought a lot of my passion for art back, and there are some things in my life I wish I didn't have to live through, but I know that without these scars... without my experiences, I wouldn't be who I am now. And who I am now, at least I think, is pretty good.
Thank you for checking me out, and hopefully, there won't be too long of a gap between this going up, and more of me around.